Tuesday, April 27, 2010

end of the semester

a few special things about the end of second semester:

  • study breaks in GDH!  every exam week, PC's student government hosts nightly "study breaks" in the dining hall for us to get some breakfast food, participate in a few food fights, and jam to our favorite tunes.  i will admit i successfully participated in a couple of food fights tonight, going so far as to flick a few grits and some eggs.  though i hear the fight is on, as of now, there is no sight of retribution.
  • moving out...so sad to see smyth 114 totally broken down.  ash's dad came this afternoon and our beds are in different rooms now.  i can't imagine living differently from how we did this year.  ash's and my room was so special--we went so far as to put our desks in the closets.  makes me sad to leave such a sweet roommate with so many memories, but excited for a fresh summer and new year as a JUNIOR (whoop!!)
  • after i complete my exams I'll be headed to the beach!  not just 1 beach but 2!  the fertile myrtle for the first few days then hilton head for the second few days.  who could want more?
  • once again I'll be going to the LP this summer!  Last summer was very challenging for me so I am apprehensive to get pumped for this summer, but I really am learning to trust God...that He can redeem my uneasy feelings and show me more of Himself for the 8 weeks I'm spending in Myrtle Beach this year.  I am praying that God will show me more rest, treasure, and joy in the Gospel this summer!
  • thanks for being such faithful readers!  ash is moving out in 2 days :( but be on the lookout for links to our new blogs :).
Peace and Love!

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Beauty

I can't begin to express the joy I feel when I pass bright pink and purple magnolia bushes on my way to Neville during the spring.  These flowers, somehow, lift an ungrateful, heavy spirit that accompanies me when my tired eyes can hardly stand to stay open for the last few classes of the semester.  I can't begin to express the joy I felt last Sunday, when after four stanzas of a beautiful, old hymn, the resounding sound of the organ stopped, and only the pure, worshipful chords of a congregation echoed throughout the church.  I can't begin to express the joy I feel daily from inexplicable, aesthetic gifts from a God who created beauty itself.

It's true; beauty, like all things, is created and defined by a perfect God whose mere words created the only world we know.  He not only heals and comforts our broken souls, but he does so with grace: a tender, sweet gift from which all human concept of beauty can never compare.
When God created the world in the first chapter of the Bible, He reflected on His creation and declared it good 6 times.  God's intentions for mankind's first pair was for the two to live forever in a blissful, beautiful garden.  And later, even when His created ones hurt him and His justness required for Him to punish them, even when generation after generation of Isrealites cursed the God who had delivered them from Egypt, He promised His grumbling people something better: a restoration of the same blissful, beautiful life initially enjoyed by Adam and Eve.
God manifested this beauty through Jesus Christ, a man who didn't just satisfy people's hunger or heal their disabled children, but gave them true life.  Yes, God declared, man had sinned.  Yes, God declared, because He is fair, they could not experience the same beauty from the garden without price.  But God's promise for restoration was so great that He did whatever He could for man to know Him again, even if it meant sacrificing a part of Himself.  And this perfect Christ, this promised Messiah, whose every action was the will of God, was scoffed by the very people He came to save.  He loved them anyway.  He died for them anyway.  That is a beauty I don't deserve to know.
There is a false beauty permeating the world.  Or at least girl world.  A beauty that claims that manufactured, made-over, underfed women are the closest glimpse of Eden we'll ever know.  A beauty that claims that our worth comes from a 4.0, athleticism, or the attention of men.  My friends, the beauty we are settling for is child's scribble instead of a Van Gough.  I would be lying if I said I sometimes didn't buy into this beauty myself.

But the grace of God changes people through Jesus.  "For the Lord comforts Zion.  He comforts all her waste places and makes her wilderness like Eden, her desert like the garden of the Lord." (Is 51.3).  We don't have to strive for beauty.  We don't have to give up meals to manipulate our bodies; we don't have to give up sleep to receive a 4.0; we don't have to give up respect to get a boyfriend.  The greatest and only sacrifice needed for our satisfaction comes from God.  And it doesn't require any strife.  It comes freely.
"Come to me," Jesus whispers.  "Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden; and I will give you rest."  (Matt 11.28)
In this rest, He changes our souls.    He even changes us to reflect some of the very beauty He reflects through Christ.  He transforms our visions from worldly beauty toward heavenly beauty.  We wait to see the fullness of this beauty.  But our hope is not in vain.  
Why? Because our God is not an imaginary friend.  The 66 books in the bible aren't fairy tales.  They are real, because Christ is real.  Christ died for a reason: to ransom us from our sin.  He lives now, too, because He has overcome Death.  Every day, Jesus, would your beauty be real in my heart...would you let me celebrate your beauty, not the world's beauty...would I be more overwhelmed by the beauty of Christ.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

another update

I recently failed to mention that today I also went #1 in a men's bathroom (scary I know, but no boys were there...PTL) AND my good friend Lauren Snyder and I will be living in a handicapped room next year=biggest room in Grotnes.  As Ashton has mentioned, Life in the Smyth Lane may very soon become a Dead End thanks to our moving out of Smyth 114 in less than a month.  Suggestions for future blog titles appreciated (although all parties acknowledge any future blog's inevitable failure to surpass our present one).

Peace!

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Overheard in the Lib

As you know, followers, I spend a lot of my time in the library.  I've come to realize I actually enjoy the Thomason lib.  I must admit, the white noise of keyboard tapping and the exchange of classmates comforts me during the wee hours of the night I often spend here. 

A glimpse of a conversation I recently overheard:

Boy 1: "Do you know a way to search for every damn period in this paper and make it bigger"
Boy 2: "Make it bigger?  Why would you want to make a period bigger?"
Boy 1: "Size 16...perfect"
Boy 2:"What's your deal?
Boy 1: "Trying to make this damn paper longer"

Laughing so hard I might pee in my dress.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

My post octogenarian-aged boyfriend

As some of you may know I have a 93 year old friend named Harold who lives at the Presbyterian Home, one of the many nursing homes in bustling Clinton, SC.  Last year I visited Harold about once a week through Student Volunteer Services, a program PC offers.  Although I signed up to once again visit Harold last semester, no one ever contacted me about details, so I forgot.  I have seen Harold a handful of times since coming back to school when my sorority makes visits, but not nearly as often as before.

Tuesday at 1:26 pm I received a call from a Clinton number on my cell phone.  The possibilities of who could be on the other line began to overwhelm me...there are, after all, so many famous people in Clinton who might solicit conversation with me.  I picked up the phone and heard a weary, old voice: "Amanda, I don't know if you remember me, but this is Harold."

After not seeing Harold regularly, he decided to hit me up!  Don't know exactly how he got my phone number (and to be honest, am quite disturbed by it), but enjoyed a good minute or two conversation with Harold before my German class.

I told Harold I had class at 1:30 and would call him back.  My phone died Wednesday so Thursday I decided to call Harold after lunch.  A brief description of our exchange:

Me (speaking very slow and loud): "Hi Harold!  This is Amanda."
Harold: "Well hey there Amanda!"
Me: "How are you doing?"
Harold: "Well the good news is I'm breathing.  Just got to start facing the reality that I'm old"
Me: "Sorry Harold"
Harold: "The real question is how are you!"
Me: "I'm doing good"
Harold: "How was your summer?" (keep in mind we had this conversation today, in March)
Me: "It was good Harold!  I spent the summer in Myrtle Beach."
Harold: "Well I sure haven't seen you in a while.  Every time I see those ZTA girls I look for you but never see you."
Me: "Maybe I can come visit you tomorrow?"
Harold: "You?  Visit me?  Tomorrow's Friday.  So Friday, the 18th..."
Me: "Yeah Harold!  Like maybe 2.30?"
Harold: "Tuesday?  Well let's see here...Tuesday's the 23"
Me: "What about tomorrow?"
Harold: "Tomorrow's Friday, Friday the 18th...what time?"
Me: "2:30"
Harold: "Tuesday?"
Me: "Tomorrow"
Harold: "Tomorrow's Friday, Friday the 18th...what time?"
Me: "3 pm?"
Harold: "Sounds great.  Just one more thing: you might want to bring a baseball bat."
Me: "A baseball bat?"
Harold: "A baseball bat or an umbrella"
Me: "Why?"
Harold: "Because I'm going to be so overwhelmed with affection that you might have to fight me away."
Me: "WHAT?"
Harold: "Yup, I mean it's going to be appropriate for public...nothing more than a kiss on the cheek"
Me: "Ok Harold.  See you tomorrow."

Fast forward to today.  All day, especially during lunch at GDH, I tried to sucker my friends into joining me on my venture to the Presbyterian Home, to no avail.  After a brief nap and no responses to my plea, I set forth on my way to the Presbyterian Home alone.  Thankfully Harold didn't kiss me on the cheek, but he did tell me we should get dinner together sometime.

Lord, you are so funny.  :)

Friday, March 12, 2010

roomie quote

ashton revealed yet another part of herself today as we were watching tv: "i have to admit, i do appreciate middle school boy humor"

Saturday mornings

When I was younger my family lived in a split-level house right off of I-77 in Columbia.  I count those preschool days as one of my most treasured memories.  These were the days when everything seemed new, and more questions entered my head than could possibly be answered by my parents, Reading Rainbow, or the infinite book collection that resided in my bedroom, from which my parents pulled nightly, reading until their voices became raspy or I drifted to sleep.


Saturday mornings were special, because they meant that my mom wouldn't be making the trek to drop my little brother and me off to preschool, or her to work at the hospital.  My brother and I would sleep until the light of the sunshine peeked through our blinds, waking us gently.  Then, I would yell "Mommy, Daddy, Mommy, Daddy, Mommmmy, Dadddddddy," gradually adjusting the loudness and intensity of my voice until my sweet parents would come to my rescue, sweep me out of my bed topped with a disney princess comforter, and carry me to their room.  For a few tender moments, all four members of my family would cuddle together on my parent's full-sized bed, until the squeeze forced one of us into such an uncomfortable position that we faced falling.

After this, we would venture downstairs and prepare to enjoy the special breakfast of Saturdays.  Some mornings it was pancakes, hobo eggs, or cheese toast.  We feasted on waffles for a while, until my mom grew angry with the waffle maker and the mess it made as the extra batter spilled onto the counters.  The kitchen in this house was substantially bigger than it should have been.  As my parents prepared breakfast, I explored the its vastness, opening and closing cabinets, finding out which were used for storage and which were empty.

We ate breakfast at a leisurely pace; my parents took time to read the paper and my brother and I took time to stop, gaze around the space, and take in the world that was still forming in our minds.  My favorite part of Saturday mornings came next, as my family would migrate the big room adjacent to the kitchen.  In this room were hardwood floors, a big, fancy rug, eventually a set of living room furniture, and the old piano my mom grew up learning how to play on.  My grandparents bought the piano for only $100.  Restored from the early 20th century, the piano wasn't the most exquisite you could imagine.  The keys were brown, a few pedals broken, and its body had experienced some wear and tear.  A piano tuner once spent hours lying on the floor, trying to adjust the tune of the old instrument, in the process finding a fork amidst the piano strings.

My brother, dad, and I would congregate around the piano with my mom front and center.  She sat on the old piano bench, preparing to tickle the ivories.  Sometimes my brother or I were lucky enough to sit beside her on the bench, marveled by the beauty of the way her fingers danced before our eyes.

She wet through the tattered, brown sheets of music on the music stand.  She warmed up to songs I can't remember, but her encore is one I will never forget.  As a 20 year old, hearing this song makes me smile, calms me, and leaves me craving for home.

Every Saturday morning as a family, my  dad, brother and I gathered around an old piano my mom played, dancing to music in our pajamas.  Like the way I am unworthy to know the greatness of God, we were unworthy to feel the magic of this music.  I currently recite the lyrics of this special song to myself, reflecting on the joy that this song gave me then and now.  I imagine my mom's fingers slowly mastering the chords, missing a few notes, and all of us singing along to a weird song that inevitably shaped my childhood.

A few moments ago, I found myself singing along: "Jeremiah was a bullfrog, was a good friend of mine, I never understood a single word he said, but I helped him a-drink his wine.  Singin'... Joy to the world, all the boys and girls, joy to the fishes in the deep blue sea, joy to you and me..."

I don't actually know what these words mean, but I could sing this song now the same way I could 15 years ago.  The beauty and simplicity of the music overcomes me the same way it did as a five year-old.